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Okay guys, there's something I need to say.

Maybe my mom was right, Maybe me being transgender is all a phase. I'm probably just a tomboy like she said. I'll admit it, it's true. It's hard to say but it's true.
I'm a tomboy, I never really liked pink. I like playing with makeup.

Please respect that I'm not Alexander anymore. It's hard for even me to process this.
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Basic Information:

Name: Alistair
Species: Human
Gender: Transgender FTM
Age: Not Given
Derse or Prospit?: Prospit
Fetch Modus: Array
Strife Specibus: Hatchetkind
Weapon: A rusty hatchet
Title: Prince of Heart

Human-Specific Information: 
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Teal (side of hair is shaved so the rest of it is teal)
Skin Tone: Pale
Pets: 6 dogs, Optimus Prime, Dodge, Harley Quinn, Aggy, Tori and Abbie. 
Sexuality: Bisexual
Relationship status: Single

General Appearance: 

Do they need to wear glasses or contacts?: Yes
If yes, are they nearsighted or farsighted?: Unknown
They should wear their glasses, but do they always?: Yes
Weight: Unknown
Height: 5'9''
Hair: www.google.com/search?q=teal+s…
Disabilities/Health Concerns: has Autism (not severe), has PTSD, worries about literally everything

Favorites and Least Favorites:

Color: Fav: Teal or Purple Least: Red
Music: Fav: Really anything, The Beatles Least: Justin Bieber's and 1D's
Movie: Fav: Anything by Tim Burton, Beatles movies
Book: Fav: Eye of The Storm by Kate Messner Least: The Twilight Series
Food: Fav: Anything, spicy Least: Mushrooms
Clothing: Fav: Anything black and/or punk Least: Anything girly or pink
Prized possession(s): Fav: Beatles posters Least: Cringy drawings

Personality:

Biggest goal: Unknown
Greatest fear: Being alone/ignored
Darkest secret: Unknown
Does anyone know?: Unknown
If yes, how did they find out?: Unknown
Greatest strength: Math work
Greatest weakness: Running
Greatest accomplishment: So far, getting all As on report card
Biggest regret: Many things.
Are they an introvert or extrovert?: Introvert
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Oh boy, do I have a story.

Okay, shit happened last night.
I'm gonna tell it in detail.

So my mom got hit by her now ex....we'll call him..Rando, not his actual name but it's better than saying his real name so.  My grandma got angry and she ended up yelling and calling the cops. Cops came, talked with my mom and my sister.
At this point, I was in my room, having an anxiety attack, talking with C.J. and others, trying to get some help to calm down and/or vent. 
I decided, fuck it, and go out there. 
I ended up doing so and there stood my mom, sister and the cop. 
My face was covered in tears, I was sobbing.
My mom saw me and she started crying too.
She ended up sobbing with me in a hug.

But what really fucked me up was the fact that "Rando" is extremely nice and caring when sober, and extremely vocal and violent when drunk.
See, I've had to deal with my fair share of drunks in my life.
The last one I had to deal with physical fights and all that shit was back in 2012.
Now, that guy was horrible and ruined my mom's and I's lives.

I don't think I can see or look at "Rando" now after what's happened.
Let me say, this wasn't the first time he put his hands on my mom.
But this is the first time someone has called the cops on someone in my house.

It's complete bullshit, that I, a teenager, has to go through a lot of heartbreak.
From break ups to this, 2016 is complete and utter garbage for me so far.
Yes, there's been happy things going on but there's just been extremely bad things going on too.

I probably emotionally won't be able to heal.
I am just so done with everything at the moment. 

-Alistair
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